I want to talk to you about something that I think is important…we are going to start now with Discourses and you got your first assignment. One of the interesting things about Discourses is that Baba told [students] that he wanted them for one evening a week get out the Discourses and read it as a group and discuss. That’s what he asked and I don’t know how many, many years ago, and they’ve been doing that ever since for one day a week. When (student) and I were there, and I think you all remember, we went to the Discourses and etc, etc.
But now it is so important that I bring this to your attention and for you to start reading the Discourses because you are going to have much more imprint. The word I want to use for you is imprint from Baba. He is going to be helping you to get what he is saying quicker and he is going to be there advising and supporting you in a lot of the things that I have already said in this book.
(Student) and I, when we went to [a center], we were so surprised because there is so much that I have worked with everybody on. Even though this is something that I have talked about through my years with you, it’s wonderful to pick it up from the Perfect Master. So, he will be helping you. The other day I had asked Baba to really take care of each and every one of you and to support you in the process of more discovery and that took place on Saturday. Then at that point, your homework will be very much accelerated.
So read over whatever chapter or pages (student) has suggested that you read over and ponder on them and think about them and then give me the homework at the end of the week. But when you get your Discourses, it is so important that you pick it up, read it and then ponder on it…let Baba help you to understand some of this. Because he is going to accelerate you; He’s going to push you; and when Baba pushes, he pushes.
So, this is really, really wonderful for you because these are all the things that I have given you throughout the years…information on all of this. I will be working on God Speaks, which is one of the assignments Baba gave me in [a Baba center] that I would be doing some work on that. In fact, I’ve gotten work already done on it. I’ve been working the last couple of years on putting things together for that. A lot of hand-written material and I will eventually type that up and get that ready to go.
So when you go to God Speaks, because that will be the next thing I will take you to...He gives the whole thing about creation and a whole lot of things that you really need to be aware of and have some sort of idea. So when I put more together on God Speaks, you are going to have a good handle on it because as time goes on, you are going to have all of these things on the website. People are going to be asking, they are going to be wanting to know more, and you guys are the ones who are going to have to answer these questions.
So, I’m helping you in getting the right foundation so when this comes up, you can help others to understand and to walk through some of their problems. Because you know that you all have had problems in your evolutionary process. Everybody is a little different, of course, but since you all have had problems that you’ve had to deal with and you’ve come out on top of it, you are going to be so much help to somebody else that is going through the same process.
I want to talk to you about detachment right now. And I know I’ve talked to you about detachment before. Detachment comes with every step of the way. Along the way you have to get detachment because detachment is of utmost importance. To give everybody an example of this was when we were all going to go to New York, and we had the interviews, we spent at least two/three months doing meditations taking our homes, our cars, and our businesses up the Seven Steps. Then we went to New York and after we went there, after a few weeks, it was “No, this is not where we need to go; we need to go to Detroit.”
But you had to be able to move quickly from one thing to the other. And so much of being detached is about not being so involved in the outcome. Because then you’re mad because it didn’t come out the way you thought it would. And then you have to waste a week, or two weeks, a month or two months getting over your anger at the fact that you didn’t get to go to New York when you wanted to, or you didn’t get to go to California when you wanted to, or you didn’t get to go to different things.
In my process, I think the biggest thing that I went through at the beginning, and you all know this story, that I was given that [husband] was dying. Well I thought it was a physical death, and you all know this story, and I took him up the Seven Steps, I did all these things and two years later he asks for a divorce. But I had all of that preparation of letting him go, etc, etc. and still it was the biggest shock that he asked for a divorce. And I told you I went through the process of being very angry because I thought for sure this was what’s going to happen, and I had to forgive God for treating me for what I thought was so badly.
That was the beginning of me learning in 1969 that this is the truth, you have to be able to move with this. And since then, my Teacher over and over and over again would sometimes tell me that I’m going to do something, so I’d put all of my eggs in one basket and the basket was full and then the basket got pulled out from under me, and I had to readjust and move on.
The reason, the reason that this happens is so that you will be so obedient that you will do what you need to do and in a moment’s notice, switch gears and not spend a week or five days or any time being angry about it. Well, you might be angry for a moment or two, but it’s so little that you don’t get involved in spending so much time in it that it takes you off your focus.
So, this training—and Baba is really going to be pushing you on this—this is why I’m telling you about it because he said, “Give them this lecture because I am going to teach them how to move on a dime. A lot of them get stuck on and get angry that something is not going their way—or on the outcome you thought was going to come.”
I got to where I always gave my outcomes to God. Because I knew I had to give my whole self to what I was asked to do and if it came forth, it came forth; and if it didn’t, then there was something new for me to move forth in. So I want you to know this up front, so that you are aware that there is always this challenge that the teacher gives you so that you aren’t all invested in the answer. So that you can move without anger in one thing or another, especially with your out-of-body teacher. I’ve done that to all of you! To all of you throughout the times. Asked you a question and you tell me what you want, and then I tell you that you really don’t want that, “I want this” so that you could move. So that you really weren’t invested in where you were going to go to dinner or what movie you’re going to go to, or if you’re going to go to California or if you’re not.
And the problem being…THE PROBLEM BEING…you need to hear this guys! The problem being is that you cannot get into complacency: “Oh well, what the hell, this is probably just a test and I am not going to put myself into it.” Because the moment you do that you BETTER KNOW that your apple cart is going to be dumped out. Because you won’t be ready…because you don’t know when it’s the truth and when it’s not the truth. Everything is designed to move your consciousness—to take out the ego that expects certain things because certain things are suppose to be a certain way according to YOU.
So, let me help you with that so that when Baba starts pushing—and I remember when I got all ready to go see Sai Baba with somebody paying my way, and I had my bags packed and I had my passport, and I knew what I was going to take. It was just a few weeks before we were going to go and the tickets were going to be bought, it was like: “No, you’re not going…you don’t need to go.” Sai Baba came to see me and that was quite a beautiful thing and that was easy to let go of.
But, there were other things…when one of my friends asked me to go to Paris, France, and everything would be paid for. And I really thought this would be a wonderful thing especially since I had had past lives in that part of the world. But it was like, “No, you’re not going, you have to stay home.” I had three months where my children were in Toledo with their father and we were going to go to Europe for two months. All of a sudden, I am not going to Europe, I am going to be home, by myself, and just be with Miss Jane. And that was the most beautiful experience for three months I really, truly got to know Miss Jane. I was taken into a totally new concept of myself and worked daily with my spiritual partner as we had a particular project that we had to do for those three months.
You know, I was sad for a day and then I realized, “Hey, there’s another purpose.” So, be spiritually savvy here. Be spiritually savvy. And be able to move from one thing to the next and not say, “Oh well, God is probably going to take it away from me anyway so I don’t care.” That’s not the attitude to take because that doesn’t get you anywhere. That says to your out-of-body Teacher, “I’m still a little baby, I’m still a child here, I’m still doing childish things.” And if you can recognize that, it will help you to move faster.
Because it’s the ego that always gets in the way and has to have its outcome the way it thinks its outcome should be. So if you can learn to pivot…and I know I’ve talked to you about this, I’ve had you read “Detachment”, I sent articles to you, but it goes on and on and on. You have to be able to be detached but be involved…be involved but you have to be detached. You have to give it your all because you are being processed so that you can move from one thing to the other with the greatest of ease and not be stumped by any of these things. They can’t pull you down to a five on the Spiritual Thermometer for five days trying to get out of the anger. Or you get into rebellion; you start rebelling because you’re angry about some situation that happened to you spiritually or whatever. That’s a waste of time because you’re not going to have the opportunity you are being prepared to take. And then that opportunity dissolves and it will be another few months before they can set up another scenario to help you pass through something you need to pass through.
These are all important things I am telling you and I am hoping that somebody will type up this dissertation soon so that I can send everybody a copy of this because I think you need to have it before you. You need to see this. “What is in my way? What is stepping in my way of moving on?” Although you all have had opportunities to switch gears, there’s going to be more opportunities to do it. And as you move clearly into your soul-self, your ego-self becomes more aggressive--and I say aggressive--and it wants its own way in the process. It wants its own way.
So, you have to give your all to whatever you are doing, with your whole heart and soul in it, with no, absolutely no expectations. You can’t think, “The outcome has to be this way and if it isn’t, man, am I upset about it.” You’re all too old, too advanced for that. Every one of you are too advanced for that behavior. And you will find yourself being tested on this so I’m giving you forewarning because it’s going to come into your face maybe three weeks from now, maybe two months from now, maybe tomorrow.
Baba is going to work on you on this because Baba wants to get you very flexible. You have to be flexible. You have to be flexible because if you’re not, it’s going to take you a lot more time to move through things and you miss opportunities. Then you get into a space where it’s kind of a void, where you can’t find the right job, or you can’t find the right house, or you can’t find the right car, or you can’t something because you didn’t work through it fast enough, and that opportunity already passed and you didn’t get the opportunity to grab hold.
It’s your ego that will keep you stuck. It’s your ego that gets angry, angry, angry because it’s not going your way. This is not what you expected on the spiritual path, so you expected to have more kudos, more gifts, more whatever. Even though you know, each one of you knows that’s not where it’s at. It’s about moving your consciousness from your limited self to your unlimited self. And you’re not going to get to your unlimited self at all until you let go of these childish things that keep you stuck. Because then the child rebels, it gets angry, and then it wastes a lot of time being rebellious.
Sometimes some of you get stuck in that type of consciousness for months, and I’ve seen that with some of you. You’ve been stuck for months in rebellion and anger about something that didn’t happen according to your plan. So, just be careful here, be careful. Recognize that the ego is trying to take charge. The ego wants to have its own way and the ego wants certain outcomes…when it wants this, it wants that. When you go to the ice cream store, you want to be able to buy ice cream. But if you go to the ice cream store and it’s like “NO.” You just walk away. You walk away. I’m just giving that silly example that seems trivial, but that’s obedience too. It’s obedience. How can I be more obedient?
The reason you have to be obedient, and I cannot say this enough to you, is because if you always kind of flip-flop through things, or you are obedient really, really well for a certain length of time, and then you pop off and you do a little rebellious thing…They don’t know, but after a while, They know what you are going to do!
“Oh, it’s going to take so-in-so six months to take a step because there’s going to be rebellion, there’s going to be this, there’s going to be that, there’s going to be the next thing…oh well, ho hum,” the Teacher says. “I’ll just wait, wait until they are ready.” And you don’t want that! You don’t want that from your out-of-body Teacher, you don’t want Him or Baba to say, “Oh well, let them go and play.”
That’s what I do with you—let you go rebel. When you come back, I’ll take you back and see where we’re at, but you may have missed some opportunities and that I cannot fill in for you; I can’t do anything about that. I can’t reproduce the opportunity maybe for six months or two more years. Because it wasn’t taken when the door was just about to be open. The door was open, but you couldn’t walk through it.
So, we have to be diligent, we have to use that Observer Self in a big way now. You’re too far along on this path not to have that Observer Self always before you, always-- never ever, ever, ever, ever make a decision without checking out where you are on the Spiritual Thermometer—NEVER EVER, EVER! Because if you do make decisions from the lower part of yourself, just read what it says! It’s not going to come out right; it’s not going to help you. It’s going to take you, maybe, a lot of time to recover; a lot of time to recover from that decision.
So, are there any questions from anybody? Hold up your hand and I will be more than happy to answer and elaborate more on that and help you do what you need to do about that. I know I’ve sent papers to you over and over again on detachment so, you do have that. That’s the most important thing I can say to you tonight about your homework and your future.
[A student asks a question.]
Ok, (student), you have two possibilities…two roads you can take…you can take a road to California or you can take a road to Alaska. And each one of them is going to require something different from you. If you go to California, you need suntan lotion and be patient in driving, etc, etc, etc. You need certain equipment to go to California. You also need certain equipment to go to Alaska, you need your snow boots and all those things. Two different things--totally different.
And you are obviously talking about a cross roads that you have been given from your out-of-body teacher, these two cross roads. I have been where you are, (student), many, many, many a time, and the only way I could get through this was to evaluate: “Ok, if I go to California, this is what I’m going to have.” And this is what They are asking you to do. To write down: “If I do this, then this is going to happen; if I do that, that is going to happen.” Because they are two different things like going to California and Alaska and you don’t know what to choose, and you’re afraid you’re going to choose the wrong thing, I’m sure about that. And I always said, “Baba, you’re putting me on the hot spot because you’re giving me a choice.”
And the choice is always about your soul’s journey. And, so, you need to sit down and figure out which one of these…I think you said where you would do the most good, right? Yeah, Ok, he’s saying yes. I would list where I would do the greatest good for the greatest amount if I go to California or Alaska. Then, and I mean down and dirty, you think of every possible thing: what would your family go through, all of the above. Because They are putting this on you, They are happy to help you go wherever you want.
Now, because you’ve got a heart that got opened, you’re going to have to look at this through your heart eyes, OK? Your intellectual eyes just went blur. It is your heart that has to speak here; the heart is going to make the decision because we just knocked out the intellect. Because if you’re trying to intellectualize this, that’s going down the foolish path here. You’ve got to do a heart thing: “What will fulfill my heart? What can I do to fulfill that yearning in me?” To learn or to grow or to stand on your head? Whatever it is.
And that’s where you’re stuck. You’re afraid you’re going to make the wrong decision. And there is no wrong decision, (student)! There is no wrong decision! Don’t worry about it, there’s no wrong decision, both are right decisions. They just want to know what you want to do so They can support it. There is no wrong decision here! If you think you’re going to make the wrong decision for the Masters, you’re crying up the wrong tree. It’s about (student)—it’s about (student)—it’s about what (student) needs. The Masters don’t care if you go to California or Alaska, doesn’t matter to Them because either one is good! You just have to wear snow shoes to one and sandals to the other. And that’s just the difference. And They don’t care if you’re wearing sandals or snow shoes, it’s up to you.
So you have been honored to be given this opportunity to make this decision. And I support you in making that type of decision. Write down the consequences and joys, the joys and sorrows. “How much work would I have to do if I did A? How much work would I have to do if I did C? How do I feel about how much work I’d have to do?”
You are guaranteed for success in either way you choose to go. Now that, (student), is a BIG, BIG thing I just said to you:
You are guaranteed, (student), for success either way you go. I want you to hear me! YOU ARE GUARANTEED FOR SUCCESS NO MATTER WHERE YOU GO WITH EITHER CHOICE, YOU WILL BE SUCCESSFUL!
So, you decide…and they are both good.
Hey! I wish They had told me that a couple times when I had to make those decisions! Nobody came and said, “Both would be good, Jane!” I had to--poor me--I had to figure it out for myself! So, you’re getting better treatment than I did (laughing loudly) in fact, I’m going to complain! I’m complaining! How come (student) got better treatment than I did?! (full of laughter) They know I’m teasing Them. I’m glad for whatever I had to do; it’s fine.
Ok, so does that help you answer? So now you have to decide if you want to wear snow boots or sandals. And you have to talk to Miss (student’s wife, also a student) about it too…see if she wants to wear snow boots or sandals. You know? Who knows? I’m sure that she has some input here, some important input. So don’t leave her out, this is not only your decision, you need to talk to her about it, because she is just as important as you are in this. OK? Because she has to go along with you, snow shoes or sandals? So ask her what she wants to wear. The problem is she wants to wear snow shoes and you want to wear sandals, then there has to be negotiating (laughing) and good luck on that one!
Does anyone else have anything else to ask about?
[A student asks a follow up question.]
That is exactly it, and you had that disappointment in New York, or I don’t know if she did? Yep, she did and I know (student) had a big disappointment because that was her city, her town. And that was so hard, she cried and cried at the airport, “We’re not going to New York”.
So, it’s being able to overcome that and since you are nonchalant about it, “I’m not investing myself into this because I don’t want to be disappointed.” That’s complacency, complacency. So the Masters look at you and think, “Oh well, she’s just very complacent, I can’t use this to help her; she won’t invest in it.” You’ve got to invest in it because if you don’t, you’re going to end up being on the other end of this having to do a big process on yourself . And there will have to be another opportunity, (student) that you’ll have to do this again, so you might as well do this NOW.
So, he makes a decision and you go along and you’re going to have another decision come up that you’re going to have to make a decision on one way or another that you can’t be complacent on. So, I know that complacent one, I’ve been there sweetie! (laughing) “I’m not investing myself because I may not be able to go to that party; I’m not buying some new shoes!” Baba said, “Go buy some new shoes.” “No, I’m not buying some new shoes, you’ll probably tell me before I get all dressed up that I’m not going to go, so why should I go buy some new shoes?”
Uh-uh…I go buy some new shoes and I get told I’m not going to the party, I set the shoes aside and I say, “Well, they’re going to be available for me for some other time for something else I need to do.” And that was always true. That was always true. I bought these dresses for what? I’m not going anywhere, why should I invest in anything like that? I sure found out that I needed to do those things because maybe what I was going to do with them didn’t come about but maybe there’s something six months down the road and they are already ready and perfect for the occasion and I didn’t have to run around town trying to find anything.
The wonderful thing is when you go with the flow, you’re going to have what you need when you need it—whatever it is. So, if you can move with that as effortlessly as you can, you’re going to find out that it’s going to work for you. It’s going to support you.
So, write down, while he’s doing his thing, write down why. Oh! I know, write down all your disappointments. Oh Oh! That’s the thing to do! “I was disappointed I didn’t get to go to New York, I was disappointed I didn’t get to be president of the class, I was disappointed because Baba told me — God told me — I was going to be president of junior league and I wasn’t. You know those things. Do that, (student). That’s going to help you a lot. So write down, “These are the things I was disappointed in, and I hand them to You…” and you gotta look at them because that’s going to help erase it and take the power out of it.
August 14, 2013
Detachment
I want to talk to you about something that I think is important…we are going to start now with Discourses and you got your first assignment. One of the interesting things about Discourses is that Baba told [students] that he wanted them for one evening a week get out the Discourses and read it as a group and discuss. That’s what he asked and I don’t know how many, many years ago, and they’ve been doing that ever since for one day a week. When (student) and I were there, and I think you all remember, we went to the Discourses and etc, etc.
But now it is so important that I bring this to your attention and for you to start reading the Discourses because you are going to have much more imprint. The word I want to use for you is imprint from Baba. He is going to be helping you to get what he is saying quicker and he is going to be there advising and supporting you in a lot of the things that I have already said in this book.
(Student) and I, when we went to [a center], we were so surprised because there is so much that I have worked with everybody on. Even though this is something that I have talked about through my years with you, it’s wonderful to pick it up from the Perfect Master. So, he will be helping you. The other day I had asked Baba to really take care of each and every one of you and to support you in the process of more discovery and that took place on Saturday. Then at that point, your homework will be very much accelerated.
So read over whatever chapter or pages (student) has suggested that you read over and ponder on them and think about them and then give me the homework at the end of the week. But when you get your Discourses, it is so important that you pick it up, read it and then ponder on it…let Baba help you to understand some of this. Because he is going to accelerate you; He’s going to push you; and when Baba pushes, he pushes.
So, this is really, really wonderful for you because these are all the things that I have given you throughout the years…information on all of this. I will be working on God Speaks, which is one of the assignments Baba gave me in [a Baba center] that I would be doing some work on that. In fact, I’ve gotten work already done on it. I’ve been working the last couple of years on putting things together for that. A lot of hand-written material and I will eventually type that up and get that ready to go.
So when you go to God Speaks, because that will be the next thing I will take you to...He gives the whole thing about creation and a whole lot of things that you really need to be aware of and have some sort of idea. So when I put more together on God Speaks, you are going to have a good handle on it because as time goes on, you are going to have all of these things on the website. People are going to be asking, they are going to be wanting to know more, and you guys are the ones who are going to have to answer these questions.
So, I’m helping you in getting the right foundation so when this comes up, you can help others to understand and to walk through some of their problems. Because you know that you all have had problems in your evolutionary process. Everybody is a little different, of course, but since you all have had problems that you’ve had to deal with and you’ve come out on top of it, you are going to be so much help to somebody else that is going through the same process.
I want to talk to you about detachment right now. And I know I’ve talked to you about detachment before. Detachment comes with every step of the way. Along the way you have to get detachment because detachment is of utmost importance. To give everybody an example of this was when we were all going to go to New York, and we had the interviews, we spent at least two/three months doing meditations taking our homes, our cars, and our businesses up the Seven Steps. Then we went to New York and after we went there, after a few weeks, it was “No, this is not where we need to go; we need to go to Detroit.”
But you had to be able to move quickly from one thing to the other. And so much of being detached is about not being so involved in the outcome. Because then you’re mad because it didn’t come out the way you thought it would. And then you have to waste a week, or two weeks, a month or two months getting over your anger at the fact that you didn’t get to go to New York when you wanted to, or you didn’t get to go to California when you wanted to, or you didn’t get to go to different things.
In my process, I think the biggest thing that I went through at the beginning, and you all know this story, that I was given that [husband] was dying. Well I thought it was a physical death, and you all know this story, and I took him up the Seven Steps, I did all these things and two years later he asks for a divorce. But I had all of that preparation of letting him go, etc, etc. and still it was the biggest shock that he asked for a divorce. And I told you I went through the process of being very angry because I thought for sure this was what’s going to happen, and I had to forgive God for treating me for what I thought was so badly.
That was the beginning of me learning in 1969 that this is the truth, you have to be able to move with this. And since then, my Teacher over and over and over again would sometimes tell me that I’m going to do something, so I’d put all of my eggs in one basket and the basket was full and then the basket got pulled out from under me, and I had to readjust and move on.
The reason, the reason that this happens is so that you will be so obedient that you will do what you need to do and in a moment’s notice, switch gears and not spend a week or five days or any time being angry about it. Well, you might be angry for a moment or two, but it’s so little that you don’t get involved in spending so much time in it that it takes you off your focus.
So, this training—and Baba is really going to be pushing you on this—this is why I’m telling you about it because he said, “Give them this lecture because I am going to teach them how to move on a dime. A lot of them get stuck on and get angry that something is not going their way—or on the outcome you thought was going to come.”
I got to where I always gave my outcomes to God. Because I knew I had to give my whole self to what I was asked to do and if it came forth, it came forth; and if it didn’t, then there was something new for me to move forth in. So I want you to know this up front, so that you are aware that there is always this challenge that the teacher gives you so that you aren’t all invested in the answer. So that you can move without anger in one thing or another, especially with your out-of-body teacher. I’ve done that to all of you! To all of you throughout the times. Asked you a question and you tell me what you want, and then I tell you that you really don’t want that, “I want this” so that you could move. So that you really weren’t invested in where you were going to go to dinner or what movie you’re going to go to, or if you’re going to go to California or if you’re not.
And the problem being…THE PROBLEM BEING…you need to hear this guys! The problem being is that you cannot get into complacency: “Oh well, what the hell, this is probably just a test and I am not going to put myself into it.” Because the moment you do that you BETTER KNOW that your apple cart is going to be dumped out. Because you won’t be ready…because you don’t know when it’s the truth and when it’s not the truth. Everything is designed to move your consciousness—to take out the ego that expects certain things because certain things are suppose to be a certain way according to YOU.
So, let me help you with that so that when Baba starts pushing—and I remember when I got all ready to go see Sai Baba with somebody paying my way, and I had my bags packed and I had my passport, and I knew what I was going to take. It was just a few weeks before we were going to go and the tickets were going to be bought, it was like: “No, you’re not going…you don’t need to go.” Sai Baba came to see me and that was quite a beautiful thing and that was easy to let go of.
But, there were other things…when one of my friends asked me to go to Paris, France, and everything would be paid for. And I really thought this would be a wonderful thing especially since I had had past lives in that part of the world. But it was like, “No, you’re not going, you have to stay home.” I had three months where my children were in Toledo with their father and we were going to go to Europe for two months. All of a sudden, I am not going to Europe, I am going to be home, by myself, and just be with Miss Jane. And that was the most beautiful experience for three months I really, truly got to know Miss Jane. I was taken into a totally new concept of myself and worked daily with my spiritual partner as we had a particular project that we had to do for those three months.
You know, I was sad for a day and then I realized, “Hey, there’s another purpose.” So, be spiritually savvy here. Be spiritually savvy. And be able to move from one thing to the next and not say, “Oh well, God is probably going to take it away from me anyway so I don’t care.” That’s not the attitude to take because that doesn’t get you anywhere. That says to your out-of-body Teacher, “I’m still a little baby, I’m still a child here, I’m still doing childish things.” And if you can recognize that, it will help you to move faster.
Because it’s the ego that always gets in the way and has to have its outcome the way it thinks its outcome should be. So if you can learn to pivot…and I know I’ve talked to you about this, I’ve had you read “Detachment”, I sent articles to you, but it goes on and on and on. You have to be able to be detached but be involved…be involved but you have to be detached. You have to give it your all because you are being processed so that you can move from one thing to the other with the greatest of ease and not be stumped by any of these things. They can’t pull you down to a five on the Spiritual Thermometer for five days trying to get out of the anger. Or you get into rebellion; you start rebelling because you’re angry about some situation that happened to you spiritually or whatever. That’s a waste of time because you’re not going to have the opportunity you are being prepared to take. And then that opportunity dissolves and it will be another few months before they can set up another scenario to help you pass through something you need to pass through.
These are all important things I am telling you and I am hoping that somebody will type up this dissertation soon so that I can send everybody a copy of this because I think you need to have it before you. You need to see this. “What is in my way? What is stepping in my way of moving on?” Although you all have had opportunities to switch gears, there’s going to be more opportunities to do it. And as you move clearly into your soul-self, your ego-self becomes more aggressive--and I say aggressive--and it wants its own way in the process. It wants its own way.
So, you have to give your all to whatever you are doing, with your whole heart and soul in it, with no, absolutely no expectations. You can’t think, “The outcome has to be this way and if it isn’t, man, am I upset about it.” You’re all too old, too advanced for that. Every one of you are too advanced for that behavior. And you will find yourself being tested on this so I’m giving you forewarning because it’s going to come into your face maybe three weeks from now, maybe two months from now, maybe tomorrow.
Baba is going to work on you on this because Baba wants to get you very flexible. You have to be flexible. You have to be flexible because if you’re not, it’s going to take you a lot more time to move through things and you miss opportunities. Then you get into a space where it’s kind of a void, where you can’t find the right job, or you can’t find the right house, or you can’t find the right car, or you can’t something because you didn’t work through it fast enough, and that opportunity already passed and you didn’t get the opportunity to grab hold.
It’s your ego that will keep you stuck. It’s your ego that gets angry, angry, angry because it’s not going your way. This is not what you expected on the spiritual path, so you expected to have more kudos, more gifts, more whatever. Even though you know, each one of you knows that’s not where it’s at. It’s about moving your consciousness from your limited self to your unlimited self. And you’re not going to get to your unlimited self at all until you let go of these childish things that keep you stuck. Because then the child rebels, it gets angry, and then it wastes a lot of time being rebellious.
Sometimes some of you get stuck in that type of consciousness for months, and I’ve seen that with some of you. You’ve been stuck for months in rebellion and anger about something that didn’t happen according to your plan. So, just be careful here, be careful. Recognize that the ego is trying to take charge. The ego wants to have its own way and the ego wants certain outcomes…when it wants this, it wants that. When you go to the ice cream store, you want to be able to buy ice cream. But if you go to the ice cream store and it’s like “NO.” You just walk away. You walk away. I’m just giving that silly example that seems trivial, but that’s obedience too. It’s obedience. How can I be more obedient?
The reason you have to be obedient, and I cannot say this enough to you, is because if you always kind of flip-flop through things, or you are obedient really, really well for a certain length of time, and then you pop off and you do a little rebellious thing…They don’t know, but after a while, They know what you are going to do!
“Oh, it’s going to take so-in-so six months to take a step because there’s going to be rebellion, there’s going to be this, there’s going to be that, there’s going to be the next thing…oh well, ho hum,” the Teacher says. “I’ll just wait, wait until they are ready.” And you don’t want that! You don’t want that from your out-of-body Teacher, you don’t want Him or Baba to say, “Oh well, let them go and play.”
That’s what I do with you—let you go rebel. When you come back, I’ll take you back and see where we’re at, but you may have missed some opportunities and that I cannot fill in for you; I can’t do anything about that. I can’t reproduce the opportunity maybe for six months or two more years. Because it wasn’t taken when the door was just about to be open. The door was open, but you couldn’t walk through it.
So, we have to be diligent, we have to use that Observer Self in a big way now. You’re too far along on this path not to have that Observer Self always before you, always-- never ever, ever, ever, ever make a decision without checking out where you are on the Spiritual Thermometer—NEVER EVER, EVER! Because if you do make decisions from the lower part of yourself, just read what it says! It’s not going to come out right; it’s not going to help you. It’s going to take you, maybe, a lot of time to recover; a lot of time to recover from that decision.
So, are there any questions from anybody? Hold up your hand and I will be more than happy to answer and elaborate more on that and help you do what you need to do about that. I know I’ve sent papers to you over and over again on detachment so, you do have that. That’s the most important thing I can say to you tonight about your homework and your future.
[A student asks a question.]
Ok, (student), you have two possibilities…two roads you can take…you can take a road to California or you can take a road to Alaska. And each one of them is going to require something different from you. If you go to California, you need suntan lotion and be patient in driving, etc, etc, etc. You need certain equipment to go to California. You also need certain equipment to go to Alaska, you need your snow boots and all those things. Two different things--totally different.
And you are obviously talking about a cross roads that you have been given from your out-of-body teacher, these two cross roads. I have been where you are, (student), many, many, many a time, and the only way I could get through this was to evaluate: “Ok, if I go to California, this is what I’m going to have.” And this is what They are asking you to do. To write down: “If I do this, then this is going to happen; if I do that, that is going to happen.” Because they are two different things like going to California and Alaska and you don’t know what to choose, and you’re afraid you’re going to choose the wrong thing, I’m sure about that. And I always said, “Baba, you’re putting me on the hot spot because you’re giving me a choice.”
And the choice is always about your soul’s journey. And, so, you need to sit down and figure out which one of these…I think you said where you would do the most good, right? Yeah, Ok, he’s saying yes. I would list where I would do the greatest good for the greatest amount if I go to California or Alaska. Then, and I mean down and dirty, you think of every possible thing: what would your family go through, all of the above. Because They are putting this on you, They are happy to help you go wherever you want.
Now, because you’ve got a heart that got opened, you’re going to have to look at this through your heart eyes, OK? Your intellectual eyes just went blur. It is your heart that has to speak here; the heart is going to make the decision because we just knocked out the intellect. Because if you’re trying to intellectualize this, that’s going down the foolish path here. You’ve got to do a heart thing: “What will fulfill my heart? What can I do to fulfill that yearning in me?” To learn or to grow or to stand on your head? Whatever it is.
And that’s where you’re stuck. You’re afraid you’re going to make the wrong decision. And there is no wrong decision, (student)! There is no wrong decision! Don’t worry about it, there’s no wrong decision, both are right decisions. They just want to know what you want to do so They can support it. There is no wrong decision here! If you think you’re going to make the wrong decision for the Masters, you’re crying up the wrong tree. It’s about (student)—it’s about (student)—it’s about what (student) needs. The Masters don’t care if you go to California or Alaska, doesn’t matter to Them because either one is good! You just have to wear snow shoes to one and sandals to the other. And that’s just the difference. And They don’t care if you’re wearing sandals or snow shoes, it’s up to you.
So you have been honored to be given this opportunity to make this decision. And I support you in making that type of decision. Write down the consequences and joys, the joys and sorrows. “How much work would I have to do if I did A? How much work would I have to do if I did C? How do I feel about how much work I’d have to do?”
You are guaranteed for success in either way you choose to go. Now that, (student), is a BIG, BIG thing I just said to you:
You are guaranteed, (student), for success either way you go. I want you to hear me! YOU ARE GUARANTEED FOR SUCCESS NO MATTER WHERE YOU GO WITH EITHER CHOICE, YOU WILL BE SUCCESSFUL!
So, you decide…and they are both good.
Hey! I wish They had told me that a couple times when I had to make those decisions! Nobody came and said, “Both would be good, Jane!” I had to--poor me--I had to figure it out for myself! So, you’re getting better treatment than I did (laughing loudly) in fact, I’m going to complain! I’m complaining! How come (student) got better treatment than I did?! (full of laughter) They know I’m teasing Them. I’m glad for whatever I had to do; it’s fine.
Ok, so does that help you answer? So now you have to decide if you want to wear snow boots or sandals. And you have to talk to Miss (student’s wife, also a student) about it too…see if she wants to wear snow boots or sandals. You know? Who knows? I’m sure that she has some input here, some important input. So don’t leave her out, this is not only your decision, you need to talk to her about it, because she is just as important as you are in this. OK? Because she has to go along with you, snow shoes or sandals? So ask her what she wants to wear. The problem is she wants to wear snow shoes and you want to wear sandals, then there has to be negotiating (laughing) and good luck on that one!
Does anyone else have anything else to ask about?
[A student asks a follow up question.]
That is exactly it, and you had that disappointment in New York, or I don’t know if she did? Yep, she did and I know (student) had a big disappointment because that was her city, her town. And that was so hard, she cried and cried at the airport, “We’re not going to New York”.
So, it’s being able to overcome that and since you are nonchalant about it, “I’m not investing myself into this because I don’t want to be disappointed.” That’s complacency, complacency. So the Masters look at you and think, “Oh well, she’s just very complacent, I can’t use this to help her; she won’t invest in it.” You’ve got to invest in it because if you don’t, you’re going to end up being on the other end of this having to do a big process on yourself . And there will have to be another opportunity, (student) that you’ll have to do this again, so you might as well do this NOW.
So, he makes a decision and you go along and you’re going to have another decision come up that you’re going to have to make a decision on one way or another that you can’t be complacent on. So, I know that complacent one, I’ve been there sweetie! (laughing) “I’m not investing myself because I may not be able to go to that party; I’m not buying some new shoes!” Baba said, “Go buy some new shoes.” “No, I’m not buying some new shoes, you’ll probably tell me before I get all dressed up that I’m not going to go, so why should I go buy some new shoes?”
Uh-uh…I go buy some new shoes and I get told I’m not going to the party, I set the shoes aside and I say, “Well, they’re going to be available for me for some other time for something else I need to do.” And that was always true. That was always true. I bought these dresses for what? I’m not going anywhere, why should I invest in anything like that? I sure found out that I needed to do those things because maybe what I was going to do with them didn’t come about but maybe there’s something six months down the road and they are already ready and perfect for the occasion and I didn’t have to run around town trying to find anything.
The wonderful thing is when you go with the flow, you’re going to have what you need when you need it—whatever it is. So, if you can move with that as effortlessly as you can, you’re going to find out that it’s going to work for you. It’s going to support you.
So, write down, while he’s doing his thing, write down why. Oh! I know, write down all your disappointments. Oh Oh! That’s the thing to do! “I was disappointed I didn’t get to go to New York, I was disappointed I didn’t get to be president of the class, I was disappointed because Baba told me — God told me — I was going to be president of junior league and I wasn’t. You know those things. Do that, (student). That’s going to help you a lot. So write down, “These are the things I was disappointed in, and I hand them to You…” and you gotta look at them because that’s going to help erase it and take the power out of it.
So, yay team yay! Yay team yay!!!!!